Life of a Korean Immigrant
The logistics of continuing and maintaining this worthless life are exhausting.
I adopted Christianity out of the fear of Hell. Even lukewarm Christians, body modifiers, LGBT, bodybuilders, martial artists, rock/pop music players, alcoholics, yogis, buddhists (including the Buddha), hindus, those in the wrong sects of Christianity, mormons, muslims, pagans, weed smokers, drug addicts, children, instagram models, etc. face horrible, eternal punishment in hell despite not being bad people or hurting others. That’s in addition to the actual street level criminals who hurt others, and the macro-level villains in this world like the Rothschilds, Rockefellers, Soros, Kissinger, Brezinsky, drug lords, world leaders, and royals. It’s dreadful.
I still feel doubtful, insecure, afraid, uncertain, with a cesspool of evil thoughts and feelings spewing up from inside me. I’m continuing my studies but sometimes feel lazy and unmotivated. Due to a deviated septum and lack of oxygen, my sleep quality was never good and I rarely felt rested even after 8+ hrs of sleep. All these decades I thought I just didn’t have willpower to stay awake. Life is brutal, people treat me like a piece of rubbish, and it’s hard to behave in a civilized, integritous way.
Sorry for the rambling.